agony.

I'm such a useless brother... I'm a freaking useless brother...
I cant even make my own brother lift up his own assesment books for HIS OWN GOOD....

All he does all day is eat, sleep and watch television... and the report book comes back highlighted all with red marks...
Victoria Secondary School so what.
National Athelete so what.

The titles are all so fleeting... cant he just look for something that is more substential?
He sits like a bozo on the sofa... like a drunken RETHARD who has drank till his up to his neck, sleezy eyes and staring at the goggle box...

When I ask him to switch of the TV and do something more constructive, like going to have a bath or even sleeping, he shouts back at my face, and tell me WHO AM I TO TELL HIM WHAT TO DO???!!

Yeah.. who am I to tell him what to do..
The freaking failure is asking a GIFTED STUDENT, who happens to be only SINGAPORE'S TOP SHORT PUTTER - to go do something more "constructive"...

He is suppose to be smarter then me, by FAR. But yet he is throwing it all away. He won't do anything apart from his meagre schoolwork and tuition work (both which presume that "gifted" students know how to study by themselves).

I wash my hands off him.

Yeah. I have nothing to make the family proud about.
I was only one of the top 10 student in my neighbourhood school
I was only the chairperson of a choir of 300 students
I was the only one who managed to survive till Grade 8
I was the only one who went out to work before any of the three
I was the leader of an entire company of Boys Brigadiers
I experience where few men will ever there tread, where few can ever live to tell the story of pain and agony.

Yes. That is not worthy the be named of in the family.

I must be the top of the top schools
I must be the TOP ATHELETE in SINGAPORE
I must be GIFTED
I must score straight As, and have straight distinctions.

But I'm your FREAKING BROTHER FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!
AND I'M SEEING YOU THROW YOUR OWN LIFE!
I'M SEEING YOU WASTING THE TIME YOU COULD DO TO MAKE THE FAMILY PROUD!!!

i couldn't make the family proud. Must you follow my footsteps too?

WHY MUST YOU BE ANOTHER SCOURGE!!!??

when will you wake up?...

I cant use the computer to contol you forever...

you.... disappoint me...